the wound is where the light enters@ softschofield
kaitie | 22 | bi | any pronouns, but usually she/her | taurus & ravenclaw | ballet teacher & writer | prev. beannysiegel and linusben

coiner of the term 'the convoy boys' ♡

mainly fandom things & aesthetic

always: 1917, george mackay, poldark, the raven cycle, the secret history, cottagecore + dark academia, lost, history, warriors, boardwalk empire, thomas barrow, the beatles, band of brothers, the pacific, veganism, feminism, queer things, horror, nature, pro-daenerys 

❝head thrown back, throat to the stars, more like deer than human being. to be absolutely free! to sing, to scream, to dance barefoot in the woods in the dead of night❞
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  • a compilation of my historical 1917 posts (so far):

    edit: i’m too lazy to update this with my newer posts but just put /tagged/mine after my url and you should find them all ily ♡♡

    rossi’s patch + the convoy lads’ regiment (worcestershire) + discussion about the royal signal corps

    captain smith’s regiment (cheshire) + a run-down of all known battalions and regiments in the film

    rambling about why the convoy lads were traveling with the cheshires + discussion of rossi being a cameronian (scottish rifle) 

    butler’s wound stripes

    scho + the hindenburg line + how that impacts his relationship with his and blake’s tree (it’s more likely than you think)

    scho + the german bunker + how that relates to the somme

    scho + the life of an infantry soldier

    conscription + the assignment of infantry soldiers to regiments, and how that relates to blake and scho

    how to write blake and scho’s battalion, regiment, division, etc.

    blake being a boy scout before the war

    infantry ranks in ww1 (but a funky remix, because tumblr made the post loop 12 thousand times) (we love to see it)

    the east surreys and their training

    scho + the return to the old somme battlefields (and i didn’t include the post that talks about what it must have been like for scho to hear captain smith mention bapaume, which was one of the original objectives for the opening day of the somme and which scho would have heard the name of over and over and over in the days leading up to it, but think about that too) (no actually here it is, why not: x)

    military and historical context for the film

    thiepval virtual experience

    bits and pieces + the last stand of the 2nd devons in 1918


    a compilation of posts where i say “i love him so much” in relation to scho a lot:

    my original “i’m so perpetually frustrated with audiences” zinger

    scho + home

    a soft main character in a war film

    scho + growing up in the dying victorian era

    scho + survival

    scho + his childhood

    scho + trauma

    scho + honesty

    scho + trauma pt. 2

    scho + how his instincts were blinded by blake

    the film’s ending

    more about scho’s character

    even more about scho’s character

    scho + blake’s rifle

    scho + being an outsider

    scho + all the boys he couldn’t save

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  • broke: george is a bastard

    woke: george is a victim of the class system and the fact that he was orphaned at a fairly young age and raised by someone who was never meant to be a parent nor wanted to be one and who instilled within him poor coping mechanisms, 

  • a list of every time george’s first instinct was compassion, empathy, and justice, often quite naïvely and childishly, but he forced it down and repressed it to fit in, be accepted, and be the person his parents and uncle raised him to be to advance the family name - and the few times the kindness won out:

    “you know, the ironic thing is i don’t have an opinion either way. i was just following instructions”

    “burying his daughter”

    “do you think we’re actually going to wait for evidence?”

    “won’t it reflect badly on us that his pleas fell on deaf ears”

    “you can’t expect them to celebrate the closure”

    “all men created equal” - doesn’t nod along or agree with the next lines of it being preposterous; also doesn’t agree with the need to keep the distinction between the gentry and the vulgars - he does later on, but for now he’s painfully aware that if that distinction had been kept absolutely rigid, he and his family would never have been given the chance to rise in the world and they would still be considered vulgars. as it stands, he’s a parallel to demelza - betwixt and between, neither one nor the other; too fancy to skivvy, too common to curtsy.

    sentencing the girl to prison for perjury. judging by his reaction to first being told of who’s nephew the assailant was - realisation, guilt, sadness - you know that if this case were brought before him at any other time, he’d sentence the man and protect the girl. he knows what he’s doing is wrong; he knows he’s being used to free a guilty man; he’s uncomfortable and upset about it; but he does it, because it’s the way to get ahead, and he has to do favours for powerful men.

    “so these experiments do happen?” - he’s in over his head, he’s overwhelmed, he’s gotten in with these bad men who are more violent and extreme than he is and now he’s caught up and having to play along when really he’s frightened and horrified

    george’s whole character arc really is just repressing his first instincts of compassion, empathy, and justice, which are often surprisingly naïve and childish given he was never properly socialised or raised and taught to force down his emotions to further the family name, and getting himself into situations where he’s in over his head and surrounded by men who are far more violent, twisted, and extreme than he is and having to play along because now he’s stuck in this dangerous situation where he’s frightened and often horrified by their opinions and actions but he can’t get out. like, george is petty, conniving, and he can be violent through hired assailants - but most everything he does is small scale. when he was trapped in deep with hanson and merceron, he was terrified

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